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I have been thinking how I should spend my last ten youthful years wisely. I know that after I hit 30, I'm not going to have as much energy and time so I can't waste it. I have been thinking of using these years to really concentrate on my career. The thought of becoming a workoholic after I graduate to further my career seemed tempting but i doubt that this is what God wants. I dont know what God wants me to do..

There are certain set of skills/weakness God has destined me with. I tried picking opportunities that allow me to use some of my stronger skills and not my weaker ones so i could optimize results. This was my guideline to figuring out what God wanted me to do. But now i'm no longer certain that this is what God wants me to do. I dont know what God wants me to do..

I have a clue to what God wants me to do but I doubt them once awhile which makes me feel insecure. Mostly because I like to think that every human being (like me) have very subtle selfish motives to everything they do. I call it human nature.

Im surprised that people still visit my blog. If i were those people (the readers), i probably wouldnt visit this blog. It's updated infrequently and the page looks ugly. So thank you for still reading this blog.

Anyways I got baptized! After being dunked, I got a whole lot of water stuck up my nose. What else did i experience after the dunk? To tell you the truth, I didn't feel like wings suddenly grew from my back and had the urge to fly (Eg. Red Bull Commercial). I didn't feel have a funny feeling in me. Instead, I had a great feeling that what I was doing was what God and I wanted.

The Bible that I got from the church is amazing. Actually, it's not entirely a bible, it is bible/commentary. It has more commentary than actual scripture. When reading the side notes, things actually make more sense to me. But I have to be careful of not making someone's thoughts as my Bible. But then again, my NIV Bible is entirely translated from someone. This means everything i read from my new Bible is just as accurate as the person who intrepreted the original scripture.

I decided from now on to add pictures for every new blog entry just to spice things up.

Im not studying when i should be studying. I dont know why. I never had trouble forcing myself to study. I'm not sure if it's because I'm burnt/lazy or lost hope that I can achieve a 3.0 GPA this semister. It's very bothersome why i have trouble handling my current course load. My previous semester was harder than this one and i handled it pretty well, so what's up with me? I have higher expectations of myself. I thought of myself going to graduate school. now that dream is gone. my 3rd year marks are probably too low. i would have to hit 4.0 avgerages in my 4th to get into grad school which is unlikely.

I'm not as sad as some of you may think. It's just that I really thought grad school was one of the few things God wanted me to do. To tell you the truth, I had great thoughts/dreams of doing great things for God with a computer science masters degree.

Sorry about this bitter tasteful blog.

I was trying to get sell one of my used textbooks. I was trying to sell it back to UofT's bookstore (which is where almost every uoft resell their textbooks) until i found out they were only going to give me $30 for it. That's a total rip off because i paid $115 + tax for that textbook and that textbook of mine was in very good condition. So i decided not to get ripped off again by UofT and try to sell the textbook myself.

I started making flyers, saying a used textbook for sale for $60 and included my email address for contact information. I went to the class that was using the same textbook that i was trying to sell and obviously gave the flyers to the students. A few hours later, i got an email by a student who wanted to buy it! yes... jackpot.

I'm back at residence without a computer because my laptop have been sent to Mississauga for maintenance and cleaning. It has been about 2 days since it happened and I'm reacting to it much better than i thought, thanks to my new tv :). I got a 13" colour TV for 70 bucks. So far i have watched 'How it is made' and 'Bachelor'. That may not be a lot to you but that's probably how much television i would watch in about a month before i had my TV.

Thanks for reading!

I'm at residence right now trying to study with no luck. The fact that I'm making updating this blog shows that I am procrastinating. I'm not only bored but feeling 'boring'. 'boring' meaning i have no life/spirit in me. All the studying i have been doing for the past week sucked it all away.

On another note, I received my christmas present from Melissa already. Why so early? Because Melissa has a patience of a 2 year old who cannot wait to see my expression when she gives me my present (im not trying to be mean). I couldnt blame her though, she did give me wonderful gifts. The gifts were:

1. A boxing balloned bag.

2. Google story.

3. A scarf.


On another note, i have been thinking about a question. Can love be forced? I have been thinking about it for a while and i say yes to some degree. You cannot force yourself to love a person but you can force yourself to love God. Why is that though?

Someone have once said that there is no such thing as forced love. People simply choose to love God/another. For example: if a couple gets into a (verbal) fight, they can still love each other because they choose to even though at the moment they dislike each other. The way I see this scenario, the couples choose to force themselves to love. So there is indeed forced love in this example.

So the question remains, why can we force ourselves to love God and not other humans? Can love even be forced at all, regardless of the context?

A group member of mine dropped the course that my other group memeber and I was taking with, which inherently means that he has quitted our group. Now i would have been okay with this if he did not leave us at the last minute when our big project was due. In fact, he did not tell us that he was going to drop the course until two days before the project was due. This leaves me and my other team member 20 pages of technical writing to complete by Friday morning.

I guess im going to have to spend late nights at the computer lab again. :(

My brain feels like it has been stretched for a mile then stuffed into a blender soaked in coffee. I'm tired and sleepy but who really cares or know? Im pretty sure UofT doesn't. thumbs down for uoft.

I watched the movie Crash with Mel and boy did it ever have repitition! The movie surrounds around 5 characters who have little to no social interaction with each other and they each have their own short story. By the time the movie ends, all 5 characters learns a valuable lesson. The lessons they learned were not deep but dramatic. it almost made me tear. I give it 2 thumbs and elbows up. :)

Anyways, im working on a secret project which some of you may already know... kekeke

Here are some interesting facts that i found on the web...

1. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
2. Alfred Hitchcock didn't have a belly button.
3. A pack-a-day smoker will lose approximately 2 teeth every 10 years.
4. People do not get sick from cold weather; it's from being indoors a lot more.
5. When you sneeze, all bodily functions stop, even your heart!
6. Only 7 per cent of the population are lefties.
7. Forty people are sent to the hospital for dog bites every minute.
8. Babies are born without kneecaps. They don't appear until they are 2-6 years old.
9. The average person over 50 will have spent 5 years waiting in lines.
10. The toothbrush was invented in 1498.
11. The average housefly lives for one month.
12. 40,000 Americans are injured by toilets each year.
13. A coat hanger is 44 inches long when straightened.
14. The average computer user blinks 7 times a minute.
15. Your feet are bigger in the afternoon than any other time of day.
16. Most of us have eaten a spider in our sleep.
17. The REAL reason ostriches stick their head in the sand is to search for water.
18. The only two animals that can see behind themselves without turning their heads are the rabbit and the parrot.
19. John Travolta turned down the starring roles in "An Officer and a Gentleman" and "Tootsie."
20. Michael Jackson owns the rights to the South Carolina State anthem.
21. In most television commercials advertising milk, a mixture of white paint and a little thinner is used in place of the milk.
22. Prince Charles and Prince William NEVER travel on the same airplane, just in case there is a crash.
23. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle built in 1903 used a tomato can for a carburetor.
24. Most hospitals make money by selling the umbilical cords cut from women who give birth. They are used in vein transplant surgery.
25. Humphrey Bogart was related to Princess Diana. They were 7th cousins.
26. If coloring weren't added to Coca-Cola, it would be green.

Credits go to UGoTo.

I haven't updated such a long time that it took me 2 mins to remember the web address to this blog. well to recap what happened in the past month or 2, I :

1. built a new computer. For geeks that care about specifications i got: AMD Athlon 3200+, nVidia 6600+ GT, 1 gig of DDR RAM and a 200 gig hard drive. After building this computer, I thought i had the fastest computer among my friends because it's the newest. But that changed until Willy told me what video card and processor he has in his beefy computer. *sigh* with jealousy. hahaha jk

2. received fantastic news. I cannot say what but I'm really happy right now. It's a BIG change since the past year and esp the past few months :).

3. am going to a Blue Jays game today at 6. It'll be good bonding time with the team.

well see you soon.

P.S. for the people who are still faithfully reading my blog, i'm planning to design a website but i'm not sure about what. Do you have any suggestions?

"Sometimes I think the only difference between a Christian and a non-Christian is that a Christian knows how sinful and messed up they are." When these words came out of my pastors mouth during a sermon, it hit me pretty hard. It makes total sense to me.

To the people who might mistunderstand this quote, Christians and ofcourse non-Christians can be good people in a general sense but that makes little difference to a God who's first expectation from humans is 'perfection'. Perfection in the sense being sinless and holy every single moment and not all-knowing and all-powerful. But ofcourse, Man fell and we need God to forgive us which is a cheating but loving way out of hell and into heaven. And the only way Christians can go into heaven if they confess their sins to God and beg for forgiveness, which allows Christians to be more consciencely aware of our faults and sins than non-Christians.

I've been pretty good. I've been convicted to serve God but i'm not exactly sure what he wants me to do. I'm one of those people who cannot hear God's voice or feel the Holy Spirit but i can tell if he's working around me and setting up opportunities for me to take.
Things that i found interesting on the news:

The nearest galaxy Andromeda is actually 80,000 light years away than the believed 220,000 light years. That's because Andromeda is 3 times bigger than we previous thought. Man that's a big galaxy.

Firefox now has 25% market share of browsers while IE only has 68%. That's a 100% increase from the past few months for firefox. go firefox!

After two weeks of waiting, i'm finally getting my new corolla. It's funny how my family bought a new corolla without even test driving it first. I guess my parents have a lot of faith in Toyota. I would rather try something different and buy a honda civic. but o well, like tracy would always say... meh.

SMALLVILLE'S SEASON FINALE WASSS SOOO GOODD!!!!

From what i've saw on the E3 video, PS3 is able to produce better graphics from Xbox 360. However, IGN released an article saying otherwise. Click here for the full review.

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my dad got into a car accident recently. Some did a hit and run which caused him to hit the curb and then a poll. the car then went into flames, leaving the car not feasible to fix. Thank God that my dad was protected by the airbags and did not get burned or get seriously injured.

God has taught me that life is fragile and it can be taken away easily. So dont expect everybody to live till the average life expectancy. People sometimes forget for every average, there's a deviation which God controls.

yay. mel and i ordered season pass to Wonderland. :)